Thursday, September 23, 2010
Learning to Quit Smoking Day 3
0745 smoked my 2nd cigarette of the day
0830 started my daily 3
0930 done with the daily 3 feel like a coffee but not really a cigarette
1045 STARVING!! am I starving b/c I'm hungry or b/c I want to smoke and I'm thinking if I eat I won't smoke?
1430 Aiden and Emily home, I'm pissy cuz Emily lost her dog tag sheet that needed to be signed I NEED A CIGARETTE before I smack her mouth for yelling at me.... but I don't smoke one, I make her put her nose on the wall instead.
I feel like maybe today I've been craving smokes more, or maybe it's in my head or maybe it's just b/c I was paying more attention to what I was thinking today??? Maybe I'm crazy? Maybe I should just have a smoke? Maybe if I have a pack in the house I won't crave them?? I have no cigarettes so unless I get off my ass and walk to the General Store I won't have any... everyone knows I'm not gonna get off my ass to walk to the General Store so I guess I'm S.O.L...... So Day 3 was not much of a success in terms of no smoking... I smoked 2 which was more than I smoked on Day 1 and its weird to me since I didn't smoke yesterday? Anyway, I guess I'll wait and see what tomorrow brings me.............